Today was an absolutely wretched day.
It was one of those days you just can't wait to put to bed within a few hours of its beginning.
I can't say that my mood was sour at all at the start. I can't say that any ONE thing made it such a horrible day.
I think that as the day progressed I allowed the events happening around me bitter me. I really detest letting that happen. I say "letting that happen" because I truly believe that we control how events shape our lives. We can allow them to dig under our skin and burrow deep within, leaving festering holes; or, we can accept things for what they truly are, change what we can, fix what can be fixed or walk away if nothing can be done for the situation and chalk it up to a learning experience.
Today, I felt like I was a block being slowly chipped away by each comment,
each request,
each demand,
each angry face,
each person standing in the aisle of the grocery store blocking the path and refusing to move.
Bickering children,
whining children,
children who thought it was funny to sit next to me with their tongue several inches from my face....I assure you, it was NOT funny.
By the end of the evening I felt like I was grasping at the last fragments of my block. Toes curled, fists clenched trying desperately not to explode. Internally begging, pleading that the retch boiling below the surface stay there...for just a little longer.
Now, in the quiet of my house I feel like I can finally take a deep breath, push it all away and start fresh tomorrow....glad that it isn't yesterday. By GOD! If I see you in the store or pass you on the sidewalk and you don't have a smile on your face...I'm going to give you the biggest one that I've got...and be glad that
I have it in me to share!
Now, I'm off to make something...with pretty paper...and flowers...and beautiful scraps of lace...because that's what makes me smile. Blessings to each of you in your day...today...and tomorrow. Won't you share your biggest smile with someone who has forgotten theirs at home, too?
It was one of those days you just can't wait to put to bed within a few hours of its beginning.
I can't say that my mood was sour at all at the start. I can't say that any ONE thing made it such a horrible day.
I think that as the day progressed I allowed the events happening around me bitter me. I really detest letting that happen. I say "letting that happen" because I truly believe that we control how events shape our lives. We can allow them to dig under our skin and burrow deep within, leaving festering holes; or, we can accept things for what they truly are, change what we can, fix what can be fixed or walk away if nothing can be done for the situation and chalk it up to a learning experience.
Today, I felt like I was a block being slowly chipped away by each comment,
each request,
each demand,
each angry face,
each person standing in the aisle of the grocery store blocking the path and refusing to move.
Bickering children,
whining children,
children who thought it was funny to sit next to me with their tongue several inches from my face....I assure you, it was NOT funny.
By the end of the evening I felt like I was grasping at the last fragments of my block. Toes curled, fists clenched trying desperately not to explode. Internally begging, pleading that the retch boiling below the surface stay there...for just a little longer.
Now, in the quiet of my house I feel like I can finally take a deep breath, push it all away and start fresh tomorrow....glad that it isn't yesterday. By GOD! If I see you in the store or pass you on the sidewalk and you don't have a smile on your face...I'm going to give you the biggest one that I've got...and be glad that
I have it in me to share!
Now, I'm off to make something...with pretty paper...and flowers...and beautiful scraps of lace...because that's what makes me smile. Blessings to each of you in your day...today...and tomorrow. Won't you share your biggest smile with someone who has forgotten theirs at home, too?
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